I am terrible at sharing my calling to those who oppose it or do not understand.  There, I said it.  I find myself getting frustrated and unable to clearly express what God has laid so blatantly within my heart.  It's easy to share my journey with those who respond to you with a look of amazement.  With complete support and understanding.  It's harder to speak with those who think I'm crazy.  Those who don't understand what a calling is.  To those who think I am living the dream, the American dream.  I am a people pleaser.  We know this.  I like everyone to like me.  I think most of us feel this way.  But for me it can be consuming.

Perhaps this is a glimpse as to what the apostles and Jesus experienced from friends and family when they went to share the good news.  In an ideal world everyone would be encouraging and supportive.  But in the same thought, in an ideal world all would be believers.  The truth is we do not live in an ideal world.  We live in a world where evil is around us.  Where possessions become idols and people have yet to experience the grace and love of our Father.

I suppose the next question is what to do with this?  I'm confident that the struggles I experience while still in America are preparing my heart for what is to come.  They pale in comparison.  They are pushing me to grow in Christ.  To rely on his strength.  I just pray that if I am accepted to SI and when I begin sharing my path with all those around me that I have patience and use every encounter as an opportunity to share how my life has been transformed.