wherever it may lead: Impatience = Distrust

It is August 14....exactly 41 days since I have been accepted to Students International. For those of you who don't know me as well as others, I am very much a type A person in many areas of my life. Which means I am always looking towards the next step and planning. I find it difficult to live in the moment as I am constantly looking ahead for the next step. God is really testing my patience level these days. In my eyes I am ready to jump. Ready to start fundraising and talking to everyone who will listen about where God is leading me. And I suppose that is a good thing, except when everything at this point is out of my control.

I am impatient. SI and I are still working out details, budgeting, fine tuning timeline, etc. But I just want to plunge. I had originally planned on moving home for a year....that was 14 months ago and now I will be here until at least June 2012. Which seems forever away. You would think by now I would learn I am not in control, to lift these traits up to the one who is. Yet once again I am humbled. Yesterday in my devotion time God reminded me of his ever present spirit and how once again I have to trust. Trust him not only in the big things but also the minute details. In this situation, my impatience is showing distrust in his plan. He will lead me and I will begin fundraising in His time. Until then, I can still love on the DR and tell every person I meet how blessed I am to know Jesus and this incredible journey we are embarking on!

"The human mind plans the way, but the Lord directs the steps." Proverbs 16:9

It's just hard for me not to think about this place and people that have stolen my heart....with pictures as these can you blame me???

I pray that you all had a restful Sabbath and are renewed in His spirit as we start this new week!

Praying for a 5 year old boy who has Cerebral Palsy and no wheelchair (Nov '09)!
He's either on the floor or in the arms of his mother.
Our church brought a wheelchair donated from our special education
ministry (Odyssey) the following trip! Answered prayers!